Changes...

I used to hate changes so much... I don like people to give me last minute work so much... I don like people to interrupt my plan...

I changed...
after I realised tht I'm not God, tht's y I cant predestined. And the same thing goes to those surrounds me as well...
after realizing tht making changes does not stop me from going to heaven, so y not...
after realising tht making changes does not really harm me or ppl, so y not...
after hearing a sermon saying tht only in changes, we would trust God more and experience Him more... A life tht is without changes will not help us much in growing and knowing God more.

From tht day onwards, I start loving changes even though there r time I'm geram still. Yet I'll get over it asap. And tht makes me adaptive, I think. To me, a life without changes is no good. I will get over "sad matter"(outwardly sad, cos I believe tht God is in control no matter what) pretty fast, even though I do need some time to adapt and settle my emotion. Yet as long as the change is God's will, I don mind. Well, after all, all things work together to bless those tht love him. And I know no matter how giant or gigantic the change is... God is always there to face it together wif me.

Yet sometimes, ppl think tht I'm very cruel, cold-blooded... And it has already come to a point where ppl might want to ask... "Don't u care?? People are leaving... Wont u do something."

Sigh... Deep down in my heart, I always want people to be in God's will. Not only in His perfect will, but be in it in the correct timing, place and people. And a lot of time I don say anything is because I don want my emotion or thought affects tht person to fulfill God's will and make decision unless I heard God's voice clearly. Well, maybe u would say, "what u have in mind might b wat God has... God wants to use u to tell tht person..." Haih... I'm really weak in this area. Pls let me off... I jz cant persuade myself to do it. I dun have peace when I release those word or even before I release it. If I know I have the tendency to speak what might b against His will or say something tht is going to mix wif my own emotion, I really would like to just keep quiet.

Sorry, if u dun understand what I'm talking about. It's ok... I'm a bit moody here. hahahhaaaa.... But basically I'm not a sentimental person. I'm basically a task-oriented person. But feel like shutting myself up today... But I know the evil one is taking the opportunity to steal or kill or destroy something. I'm not giving it the chance to take advantage. I'm going to rejoice and draw my attention back to Jesus' cross in 5min. The place tht I have my victory.

Where I'm weak, there I'll be strong... by His grace n mercy...

3:38pm 30th May 2008