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Don't ask me to read body language. I'm just not good at it...

Hhahhaa.. I dono why but I just cant b like other girls who are sentimental and know how to read and intepret people's body language... Hahhaaha

Below is my conversation wif a fren in MSN

________________________________________________
Joyce says: wat make u felt so terrible?
Fren says: many things truout lo
Fren says: before n after
Fren says: haiz
Fren says: i think u can see from my face tat day la hor
Joyce says: Oo.. u mean slt/
Joyce says: tak perasan.. Hahaha
Fren says: aiya
Joyce says: soli, i'm not good at reading body language
Fren says: nvm la
Fren says: heartless fren
Fren says: haha
Fren says: jokin
Joyce says: not heartless la.. i did this to everyone
Fren says: yala
Joyce says: not jz to u only cos i memang not good at reading body language
Fren says: u heartless to everyone
Fren says: wahahaha
Fren says: lagi teruk
Joyce says: hahahahahaa
Joyce says: tht's fair
Fren says:pengsan
Joyce says: yeah!

:-p

Varieties...

Hmm.. I went to Hospital UM last week to visit a friend. This was my first visit to hospital university. And having going there alone, the only way to get to that place is by asking. Below would be various instructions that I receive along the way...

I: Kak, macam mana nak pergi menara timur?
LAdy A: Cik nampak lift kan, cik naik lift ke tingkat 2. Belok kanan, cik akan nampak cafe..............( She told me a lot. But I was actually just at the starting point and menara timur is qt far fr there, so I can't remember all the things that she told me. But I manage to go to the cafe. And what impress me is... she keep on addressing me as 'cik')
Impression: Very very polite... because she 'cik'...'cik'... throughout the conversation.

I: Kak, macam mana nak pergi Menara Timur, bahagian ontologi eh?
Lady B: I pon tak tahu la. Cuba tanya orang kat sana.
Impression: Jz came here and work? How come dono one??

I: Encik, macam mana nak pergi menara timur?
Man A: Itu menara utama... menara timur jauh lagi la. Sebelah sana. Kena pass though menara utama. You ikut tangga ni, turun. Pergi menara utama. Cari signboard.
Impression: Ok. At least I got some direction even though he din tell me how to get there exactly.

Then I saw signboard thus followed it... But then after a while no sign of signboard liao...

I: Kak, macam mana nak pergi Menara Timur?
Lady C: Oo.. Jauh lagi.. Err.. You nampak lift kan, naik lift pergi tingkat 2. Lepas tu, susah nak cakap la. You naik, then tanya orang ke atau tengok la signboard.
I: Ada signboard eh... Ok. Ok.
Impression: Sure or not, signboard? Just now the guy also told me got signboard. Whatever la, if don't have then ask again...

So, I went to 2nd floor and I saw the signboard. But then the way that the signboard showed seem no end one. Better ask...

I: Encik, macam mana nak pergi menara timur?
Encik B: Oo.. Menara Timur. Pertama kali ke?
I: Ya, pertama kali. Nak jumpa kawan...
Encik B: Banyak jalan boleh sampai... Sini boleh. Jalan terus ..... (forgot what he said). Sini pon boleh ... (also forgot what he said...) Sini pon boleh. nampak tak signboard tu, belok kanan kat signboard tu..lepas tu naik lah lift ke mana-mana tingkat kawan u ada...
Impression: Don't tell me so many options. Tell me one and the simplest one will do. Giving me so many option is making me pening only... Guess what, after telling me so many things, he said:"Ikut lah I!". Kan bagus tell me this at the very beginning. Hahahahaa... But I like this uncle very much la. Very friendly and funny. Talk with me a lot along the way...Show me here and there, like tour guide... hahaha...

See, there is all sort of people around us. Friendly one, not so friendly one, polite one, blur blur one.. Hahaaha.. Varieties!

Life is interesting...

Convo.. Convo..

Yes! I'm graduated and my convo would be on 10/8 (Sunday morning). So excited... Come ya, everyone... We meet at the gong there after I come out. Hahhahaa...

Here some tips for you to prepare gifts for me. Whahwhwawahahaaa
1. Don't buy me flower or bear bear. Some of you might says that no flower when taking pictures would not be nice. Never mind. Don't worry. I got a lot of friends. I can borrowed theirs and take pic. hahhaaa... I don't like them is because would eventually become dust collector and taking up space as well.
2. I love cheese cake. But don't everyone buy me cheese cake ok. Nanti, I would need to extend my 40 days national prayer fast to 80 days pula.
3. I like reading. Buy me books on prophecy, deliverance, prayer, leadership, building relationship, PHP, Perl, bioinformatics, structure modeling or database would be good...
4. I need a washing machine... ahahhaaa
5. I need someone to wash my car once a month at least.
6. if you are not interested in all the above, then buy me petrol lo... Hahhahaaa...

what else eh.... hahahahahaa...

Result coming out tomorrow...

Hmm.. This would be my last sem result of my degree life... Happy...
No matter what result it is going to be, I just wana thank God for the time that I had in my degree life. Yes! I have coursemates yang gila gila bersama saya...I got housemates that play and eat around with me... Learned a lot of things throughout this 3 yrs. Really thank God for these...

So rejoice, because God said lousy result will not disqualify me to go heaven... Yes! So don really care.. Hehehehee

MOving on...

Because God said: "The time for you to pluck out your feathers and allow new one to grow has passed. And now would be the time for you to be like an eagle to soar on high by tapping upon the wind..."

Because God said:" Do not forget the two words (Perseverance and Obedience) that I spoke to you when I met you on the mountain last year..."

Because God spoke to me in a dream saying that "Growth would surely come in..."

Because God released the vision with the message - You are like a ship that is going through the darkness yet you would go through and come out victoriously...

I choose to grab hold of His promises even though I might be very discouraged and disappointed at the moment...
I choose to press on, allow God to heal and comfort me and move on...
I choose to give thanks in all circumstances knowing that God is always in control...
I choose to rejoice even though I'm in a raging sea...

Friends, God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow...
To come back to Him or not...
To let Jesus become our Saviour or not...
To trust in Him or not...
To rejoice in Him or not...
To allow Him to work in our lives or not...

The choice is always lied in our hands.

God is a gentleman. He would never ever force us to do the things that we don't want to do...

It is a choice...

Like this song very much... I will run to you

You call me to Your purpose
As angels understand
For Your glory, may You draw all men
As Your love and grace demand

And I will run to You
To Your words of truth
Not by might, not by power
But by the spirit of God
Yes I will run the race
'Till I see Your face
Oh let me live in the glory of Your grace

I want this song be played in my funeral...

There is always a time for us to leave this earth. And I think this song best describe my life that is touched by Jesus... So during my funeral, I would like to have this song be played...


"Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone)"

Amazing grace
How sweet the sound
That saved a wretch like me
I once was lost, but now I'm found
Was blind, but now I see
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear
And grace my fears relieved
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed

My chains are gone
I've been set free
My God, my Savior has ransomed me
And like a flood His mercy rains
Unending love, Amazing grace

The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures
He will my shield and portion be
As long as life endures

The earth shall soon dissolve like snow
The sun forbid to shine
But God, Who called me here below
Will be forever mine
Will be forever mine
You are forever mine

To listen to this song, please click the below link:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AXV6HJxUebg

Raging Sea...

I like this song very much. It help me and remind me to be still in the presence of God and know that He is always there for me even when I'm in challenging situation like now. Hope you will like this song as well...Jesus is always there for us to reach out... Click the below link that would bring you to that song...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XtCS0aodIYI

Lame.. Lame.. Lame..

This is how a primary school student did his sentence making...

1.其中
小朋友：我的其中一只左脚受伤了。
老师批语：你是蜈蚣吗？

2.难过
小朋友：我们家门前有条水沟很难过。
老师批语：老师更难过！

3.又····又
小朋友：我的妈妈又矮又高又肥又瘦。
老师批语：你的妈妈是变形金刚吗？

4.你看
小朋友：你看什么看！没看过啊？
老师批语：不要再拽了！

5.欣欣向荣
小朋友：欣欣向荣荣告白了。
老师批语：连戏剧不要看太多了！

6.好吃
小朋友：好吃个屁！
老师批语：······

7.天真
小朋友：今天真热。
老师批语：你真天真！

8.果然
小朋友：昨天我吃水果，然后喝水。
老师批语：是词组，不能分开的。

9.况且
小朋友：一列火车经过，况且况且况且况且。
老师批语：我死了算了！

10.陆陆续续
小朋友：下班了，爸爸陆陆续续的回家了。
老师批语：你到底有几个爸爸？

11.先····再····（例题：先吃饭，再洗澡）
小朋友：先生，再见！
老师批语：······


Whwhahahhwhhahahah

This is really comforting...

Even though I'm a very task-orientated person jz as u always see me wana get things done fast and efficiently, there r time I'm jz too careless... And that makes me cant finished my work or achieved my goal nicely. A lot of time I would be wondering where have I put this, where have I drop tht.

Still remember there was one time I was looking for an exercise book which was with me jz few minits ago. And guess what, after I have merajuk for qt sometime, you know where I found it? I actually terselit it in another book... sweat right? Really blur isn't it... And situation like this really make me discouraged and self-condemned. A lot of time I asked myself how can I, a person tht have high demand on task accomplishment allow this thing to happen... In my principle.. I would not allow things like a player lose his/her match simply because he/she din bring his/her rackets which disqualify him/her from joining the competition... I would lagi marah if the player lose the match simply because he/she brought the shoes which is not his/her size and hinder his/her performance in the competition.

Until one day, God spoke to me... "Though you might be blur sometimes, but tht makes you cute and adorable..."

Whhwhaaawhwhahahaaa... Now I realised... After all I'm human too. And it is a process to perfection.

Isn't this comforting....

Staying and Leaving...

I stayed because the Lord asked me to...
And I would leave if He says so...

Citation...

"Now, here, you see, it takes all the running you can do, to keep you in the same place. If you want to get somewhere else, you must run at least twice as fast as that!"
The Red Queen to Alice in Through the Looking - Glass by Lewis Carroll

"When horse power reaches its limit, will power takes over..."
Micheal Schumacher

Changes...

I used to hate changes so much... I don like people to give me last minute work so much... I don like people to interrupt my plan...

I changed...
after I realised tht I'm not God, tht's y I cant predestined. And the same thing goes to those surrounds me as well...
after realizing tht making changes does not stop me from going to heaven, so y not...
after realising tht making changes does not really harm me or ppl, so y not...
after hearing a sermon saying tht only in changes, we would trust God more and experience Him more... A life tht is without changes will not help us much in growing and knowing God more.

From tht day onwards, I start loving changes even though there r time I'm geram still. Yet I'll get over it asap. And tht makes me adaptive, I think. To me, a life without changes is no good. I will get over "sad matter"(outwardly sad, cos I believe tht God is in control no matter what) pretty fast, even though I do need some time to adapt and settle my emotion. Yet as long as the change is God's will, I don mind. Well, after all, all things work together to bless those tht love him. And I know no matter how giant or gigantic the change is... God is always there to face it together wif me.

Yet sometimes, ppl think tht I'm very cruel, cold-blooded... And it has already come to a point where ppl might want to ask... "Don't u care?? People are leaving... Wont u do something."

Sigh... Deep down in my heart, I always want people to be in God's will. Not only in His perfect will, but be in it in the correct timing, place and people. And a lot of time I don say anything is because I don want my emotion or thought affects tht person to fulfill God's will and make decision unless I heard God's voice clearly. Well, maybe u would say, "what u have in mind might b wat God has... God wants to use u to tell tht person..." Haih... I'm really weak in this area. Pls let me off... I jz cant persuade myself to do it. I dun have peace when I release those word or even before I release it. If I know I have the tendency to speak what might b against His will or say something tht is going to mix wif my own emotion, I really would like to just keep quiet.

Sorry, if u dun understand what I'm talking about. It's ok... I'm a bit moody here. hahahhaaaa.... But basically I'm not a sentimental person. I'm basically a task-oriented person. But feel like shutting myself up today... But I know the evil one is taking the opportunity to steal or kill or destroy something. I'm not giving it the chance to take advantage. I'm going to rejoice and draw my attention back to Jesus' cross in 5min. The place tht I have my victory.

Where I'm weak, there I'll be strong... by His grace n mercy...

3:38pm 30th May 2008

Not because of who I am but WHO HE IS

Hmm... Jz got back from Batu Pahat... Not really a pleasant trip. Din manage to rest gao gao and seek God gao gao but instead I brought back a burdened heart... A lot of things r happening in my family and frens. And my 2 younger brothers r making my head bigger and bigger... God, help ahh!!!I felt disappointed and discouraged... Really... But tht doesnt mean tht I'm despair... I believe that God is in control and surely He would do sth NOT because of who I am but WHO HE IS... That's why I love Psalm 24:3 so much - He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake. Thank God He din say He would guide me in the righteous path because of my faithfulness and obedience. Otherwise, I wouldn't noe when can I be in His righteousness path...

A lot of time I felt disappointed and discouraged because ppl don do what I expect or things don work out what I wanted it to b. I think this round the same thing happen. But God reminds me what my aunt told me... "Never put ur standard on others. God created us differently and uniquely. And if we do so... that is called self-righteousness. Don't worry. God is dealing each and everyone. There is a timing for anything."

Hmm, this remind me of another thing tht she told me - "Don't expect ppl to change unless u urself change first. If you yourself dun change, tht person wld never ever change because God is using him/her to mold u. If you r not changed how can tht person changes. His or her mission will leave unaccomplished then."

Walau eh... Isn't this 2 very hard?? Hmm, the joy of the Lord shall be my strength...

Packing & throwing...

Hmm... Have been packing and throwing since I got back from Kuala Terengganu. Yes! I'm going to another phase of life...

But packing is something tht I don really like even though I might b pretty good at it... I think I prefer throwing more... Hahhaaa... Those tht long time not using it liao de, throw... THose tht dun really recognise liao de, throw... Those tht already got softcopy de, throw. Those paper that i kept cos thinking tht I may recycle it, throw... I wana turn myself into a season traveler. Dun wana keep things tht I dun use liao de... Tht's what I did when my family shifted 2 yrs ago in BP. I even threw all my trophy which I won in my school time. Hhaahhaa... Last time I used to keep a lot of things. Having the mentality tht - keep la, keep la, maybe i would need it in the future or keep la keep la, it is a memory. So end up keeping a lot of books, notes and other things. Until my mum also cannot tahan. She said I'm like karang guni. I changed after my mum scolded me, after hearing a sermon saying tht our lives should b lighter n lighter as we keep on surfing wif the Lord and not become more n more burdensome. So since then throwing become my habit. Since not using it liao, throw!!!

This round really throw a lot of stuff yet how come the thing tht I pack is still a lot geh... It's already 6 A4 boxes, 1 B5 box and 1 food storage box d, how come not finished yet de... Still got clothes, bags and shoes not yet pack... Pengsan!!!

While i was packing, I realize tht I got a lot of papers, notes, handbooks and books. When I look at all of them how I wish tht they are in softcopy. Hahhahaa... But then I'm a person tht don like to read soft copy. Usually I would print it out. Cos i cant write notes next to it, I cant high light it, I cant bring it wherever I go... Dilemma...

Ok, til here. Wana go back and continue packing and throwing...

Learning...

Learning to be still and allow His Spirit to lead me...
Learning not to fight with my flesh but allow Him to fight for me...
Learning to give thanks in all circumstances...
Learning not to expect people to perform or act according to what i expect...
Learning to allow His Spirit to move and I would only corporate...
Learning to be persistent and obedient...
Learning to talk softly and gentle... (Can I not include this??? Feel so reluctant... Hahaha)

Things started to work by its own... I'm amazed. But I know it must be Him... Touched!!!

Am I talking too loud?

Is my voice very loud? I always got feedback saying that my voice is very loud. Some of them even say that I'm too noisy. :(

Let me tell you why my voice is so loud... I din intend it to b loud also de...
1. I grew up in kopitiam. My grandparents used to own a kopitiam. After they retired, my parents took it over. You know la, in those traditional kopitiam, where got people talk softly one. All the uncles, even aunties would be raising their voices to discuss things that are happening in the country and the town. But I like this kind of atmosphere, very warm. (blaming growing up environment)
2. The kopitiam is actually just next to my old house. And there is actually a small door that is connected this two house. So there are time when my mum or dad is in the kopitiam, my brothers and I would b at our house. Then we will just talk and communicate like that. Since we need to make sure that we hear each other, we would need to speak loudly right? (Blaming why the kopitiam and house are jz next to each other.)
3. My grandparents has 20 over grandchildren all together. We cant expect children to be too quiet right. They should be very vibrant, active and playing all around right. So when we are all together, how do u expect us to be quiet. Surely we would be playing around and making a lot of noise de la, agree right... (Blaming cousins)
4. My mum have all together 9 siblings. They have a culture whereby every afternoon, they plus their wives and husbands (those that free lal), would sit together to drink coffee and chit chat. So plus some of my cousins and I, we would have about 10+ people sitting together and chit chat. So so many people we would need to talk louder so that those that sit at the other end would hear us right? (Blaming big family...)
5. I was prefect when i was in my primary school and secondary school. So to make sure that I'm a responsible prefect, a lot of time i would need to talk loudly to control the situation mah. If not because of my loud voice, a lot of time the school wold be very chaos, you know.
(Blaming why the school wana choose me as prefect..)
6. I was fr convent school (Primary + Form1-5), and all my friends talk very loud. If you have met my friends or my current housemates, then you would be wondering why all these people talk so loud geh... Not only me hor... Throughout my life, my class always kena complained that we are very noisy. Not because of me alone ho, I don have this ability to make my class to well-known by my own strength, ok. 80% of us are noisy and talk loudly. Like this baru like one family ma. We have come to the point, where there was times that we went to mamak and kena complained by another table. Hhahaaa... In mamak stall pun kena complained. And there was one time when my friends and I were talking in her room, her mum said that how come only two of us are talking but the voice is like 10 people are talking geh... HAhhaaa (Blaming friends...)
7. God put me and raise me up in these environments sure got His purpose. If I dont utilise it, then next time when God need it, how? After all, is there any bible verse saying that girls should not talk loudly?? Don't you think I'm very unique?? Hahhahaaa (Blaming God??)

So, you see. It is not my fault right... So don't keep feedback me i'm very noisy leh... And then don judge that girls that talk loudly is not gentle leh... So hurting... Hahhahaaa...
Ok, many of u must be saying-Joyce, you and your excuses. Don b like that la, there are time I'm quiet also de, eg when I'm sleeping and eating. Why u dun see it leh... HAhahhaa...

Ok la... Try to change lo...

I don't say anyting doesn't mean tht I don't care...

A lot of time, when u r really really close to me, i wont say anything when u r making decision tht would affect your life in long term. I won't even tell you how i feel or what I think u shld do actually... The most tht i may tell you is jz do some analysis wif u and ask you to make ur own decision. And the reason I don say anything is because I don't want you to make a decision tht is out of God's plan simply because of all my words. I know how powerful the influence tht one could impose on another one who he/she is close to. And I dun want what I said causes you to miss God's will. I know some of u may ask am i really tht influential? Are not God the one tht is always in control? Hahhaa... I know all this. But i would say i react tht way is because the Godly fear tht is inside of me.

That's why in cases like this, i would always keep my mouth shut. But I would really keep the matter in prayer. I do tell God what my heart desire. But I always end my prayer in "let thy will be done". It's ok if what it turn out is not what i expect. It's ok if the decision tht you make is not what I expect. I would respect whatever decision u make no matter what, even though i might go through some sad moment because of the decision u make or ur acts when u r in the process of making decision. I would always support and respect... I believe tht as I pray God is at work and He is in control...

I don't say anything doesn't mean tht I don't care...

Tug of War

Fun.. Fun.. FUN...

Hahhaaa... Hope game was held today... WEnt and join tug of WAR. SIOK AHHhhhh....

Even though we didn't manage to win at the end, but I truly enjoy the whole process. Having a team of people to work together. That is what I was expecting when I signed up for that game. Really satisfying and felt so contented! From knowing each other --> thinking strategy together-->warming up together--> Pulling together-->locking together... It was really fun even though I'm now very dark after spending long hour under the hot sun. Worth it! Worth it! Thanks to those that use all their energy to cheer for us under the sun or canopy as well.

Happy... Happy... Happy...

Joyce = lame joke lover...

Other than ginger, onion, garlic and cheese, I love lame joke also. Especially Ah Beng's series...

Here some to share... Real lame...


Ah Beng bought a new mobile.
He sent a message to everyone from his Phone Book & said,
"My Mobile No. Has changed.
Earlier it was Nokia 3310. Now it is 6610"

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Ah Beng : I am a Proud, coz my son is in Medical College .
Friend: Really, what is he studying.
Ah Beng: No, he is not studying, they are Studying him.

============ ========= ========= ========= ===
Ah Beng : Doctor, in my dreams, I play football every night.
DR: Take this tablet, you will be ok.
Ah Beng : Can I take tomorrow, tonight is final game.

============ ========= ========= ========= ====
Ah Beng : If I die, will u remarry?
Wife: No! I'll stay with my sister. But if I die will u remarry?
Ah Beng : No, I'll also stay with your sister.

============ ========= ========= ========= ==
Ah Beng : People consider me as a "GOD"
Wife: How do you know??
Ah Beng : When I went to the Park today, everybody said,
Oh GOD! U have come again.

============ ========= ========= ========= ====
Ah Beng complained to the police: "Sir, all items are missing,
except the TV in my house."
Police: "How come the thief did not take the TV?"
Ah Beng : "I was watching TV news..."

============ ========= ========= ========= ==
Ah Beng comes back 2 his car & find a note saying "Parking Fine"
He Writes a note and sticks it to a pole "Thanks for complement.. "

============ ========= ========= ========= ======
How do you recognize Ah Beng in School?
He is the one who erases the notes from the book when the teacher erases
the board.

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Once Ah Beng was walking he had a glove on one hand and not on other.
So a man asked him why he did so. He replied that the weather forecast
announced that on one hand it would be cold and on the other hand it would
be hot.

============ ========= ========= ========= ========= ==
Ah Beng in a bar and his cellular phone rings. He picks it up and
Says "Hello, how did you know I was here?"

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Ah Beng : Why are all these people running?
Man - This is a race, the winner will get the cup
Ah Beng - If only the winner will get the cup, why others running?

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Teacher: "I killed a person" convert this sentence into future tense
Ah Beng : The future tense is "u will go to jail"

============ ========= ========= ========= ========= =====
Ah Beng told his servant: "Go and water the plants!"
Servant: "It's already raining."
Ah Beng : "So what? Take an umbrella and go."

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A man asked Ah Beng why Ahmad Badawi goes walking in the Evening and not
in the morning. Ah Beng replied Ahmad Badawi is PM not AM

His GRACE is sufficient for me...

Hmm... Thank God that I have finished all my papers already. Bye... No more papers in degree life. Hahhaaa....

The last whole week was truly a week that I got to taste the grace and goodness of God. I was overwhelmed by His love and stunned by His grace and mercy.

I started to have allergy last Tues. And I was in itchiness throughout the whole Wednesday. And it come to a point whereby I cant tahan anymore and went to see doctor o Thurs morning. I was ok after taking the pills for one time and after a lot of sleep. Then I was able to go to hospital and visit a sister on that evening. Then celebrated a friend's bday on that night. Mana tahu... The cake was contaminated and made me keep on running to the toilet for 3 times from 7-745am the next morning. So I went to see doctor again. After taking the pills, my diarrhea was still on throughout that day and stop only on Sat morning.

I got 2 major papers on this week, Monday and Wednesday, both requiring a lot of study and memorizing work. I was not able to spend much time on studies as I was sleeping most of the time. So after the intercession and makan CG on last Sat, by the time I got back home was already 10pm. I really wanted to study but my will power was not strong enough. So at the end, I just sit on my bed, prayed a prayer by telling God that next day would b Sunday service and I dont want to make myself so tired until I cant concentrate during the service. But at the same time I really dont know when can I have time to do my studies. So, I just asked God to intervene and prayed that I wld rest in His presence. Then I just fell asleep.

By 1pm tht night, I woke up. When i looked at the time and was thinking-Har... 1pm only? Still a long long night to go. So I tried to get back and sleep. But no matter which position tht I turned to I just cant sleep. So ok lo, wake up and study lo. So, I did my study fr 1pm - 4pm. My understanding was so good tht I get to understand all the things that I was studying. Wah... I'm really amazed as I was really blurred and dont really understand it when I first read it few days ago. So I almost covered everything of my Monday paper during that period and went bk to sleep until7am. Then went to church and had a good service and ministered by God.

I was satisfied wif my MOnday paper even though there were still some questions that I cant answer. Whatever lah, I already did my best. So after that paper, came bk home and keep on working hard til the next paper on wed. But I still thank God that I was able to do lots of things other than studying during tht 2 days. I went to visit a sister who fell down, a sister who had allergy too, went to GH KL to visit a sister, attend Mon prayer meeting and went pasar malam together wif my housemate.

It's really a fruitful week. I went bk hometown right after I finished my paper on Wed. Had a great time at home. Cut my hair. Highlighted my hair. Serviced my car. Changed my spec. Washed my car. Ate my mum's cooking. Ate wif my aunt and my ex church leader. Watched tv wif my younger bro. Visited a sister who was really advanced in years. Wao... That's really a lot of things tht I have done. Then came back to Bangi on Fri, together wif my aunt as she is attending a seminar in Bangi.

I really get to taste the GRACE of God lo. And that remind me of what a pastor shared in her preaching. Grace is never overflow. But it would provide you the strength to go through all the challenges. With all these experience, I really understand what does God means by His GRACE is always sufficient for us in a deeper way. He is faithful and He would cause everything to work together for those that love Him and are called by His purpose.

I'm truly overwhelmed by His love. And stunned by His grace and mercy...

A thought that knock at the door of my heart...

Been not feeling well for days. Started with allergy, and having diarrhea today... It broke my record liao... I never see doctor since I came to UKM, everytime also I fetch ppl to see doctor instead of myself. But... I went to see doctor twice in this week. Arrgghhh....

Well, this is not what I wanted to say in this blog actually... Hhahahaa...

Hmm... Everyone will start to think what to do after grad de la. So, so am I. Decided to do master. But how about after master? A thought came and knock at the door of my heart either this morning or yesterday morning. Can't recall. Maybe I'm just too sick. Thinking about wana go back Batu Pahat after finishing my master. Get a job and start working, no matter it is related to my field or not. Dun care if the salary is what a master holder should get or not. Hahhaa... After all, doing master is for the sake of God's ministry.

This thought really shocked me. Never think like this before. A revelation?? Hhahaaa.... Not sure. See how God leads la.

Keep moving.. Dun wana think about it...

Emotion affected this two days. Unexpectedly received a sms fr a friend who I lost contact for quite some time... Then the mind started to run wild...

I dun wana go back to how I was affected when I think about things like these, because whatever I think is always the reverse of the reality. Really wasting my precious time...

I just wana commit to God and I believe that God has prepare the BEST for me and He would eventually lead us together. So, all i wana do is just --> pray, commit, and move on without thinking it much...

I know He can and He would certainly do it. Stunned by His grace and mercy...

Sometimes...

Sometimes, I'm just too... ... carelesssssss!!!!!!!!

Where I'm weak, there I'll be strong...

Dreamsss...

Woke up yesterday morning and one of my old dream crapped into my mind. Last time, I wanted to go Singapore for work after I graduate. But one day in my degree life, a friend reminded me that I shld pray for God's will. So I did. And the answer that I got is "NO". Hahhahaa... Since then, I've put this dream aside. Until yesterday...
Now I realize I still desire that one day I would be able to work in Singapore, but it might be another form. When this dream came into my mind yesterday, it was actually another form, not as a permanent working lifestyle. It is something like being post by company to work there for a few months that kind of thing or go for meeting or conference. I'm really excited and comforted when all these things start to came into my mind. Suddenly, I felt that there is hope for this dream to come true.
I believe that this event is not an incident. I'm sure someday I'll have my dream come true but we would need t be open for it to come in different form. Hahhaaa... Feel so excited and wana to recall all the other small little dream that I had last time...

Hahaha... Welcomed! Hoping this page would be a page to connect with friends, esp those old old pals...